没事

I turned 40 this year. I’ve been in China four years. You’d think I would have figured out how to do life well by this time. 


I find it hard to invite people over when the place is a mess. I want a clean, or at the very least, a picked up home.  I don’t mind going to other people’s homes when they’re not nice and neat. I go to hang out with my friends, not to see their gorgeous home. I don’t mind moving something to sit down or seeing last week’s dishes on the counter. But when someone shows up and my apartment is like that I’m quite embarrassed. Well, in this day and age, it seems that finding routine and structure isn’t possible on many days. So, I’m trying to learn to go with the flow more.  I’m trying to be ok with the fact that I don’t have it all together.  I’m trying to accept that I’m never going to have it all together. 


Here’s to smiling and opening the door when I don’t have it all together.

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2 Responses to 没事

  1. twoshall says:

    Beautiful my Ami. You are so right. Fellowship is about sharing life together. I’m proud of you for following your dream, especially in the hard times. What do we remember most in life? I remember the feelings, the welcome, the heart, the love. Mama

  2. Caleb says:

    Dang, this really hits home Ami. I always feel strange having people over when my house is messy. I have this same group of people over every week and for almost a year straight I said “sorry about the mess” every time they came over, until one of them told me to quit it haha.

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